Light the Fear

What Bothers Me?

My mind bothers me, and the World bothers me, the fucked up economic and social systems we have that make a mockery of equality and justice bother me.  I feel jaded and hypocritical all the time now: We deserve to die, and nobody said life was fair, but it’s always been good to me.   Does that make me part of the problem?

I hate being a baby and melodramatic, but I also feel like stopping typing. 

“NOTHING MATTERS,” is this viscous mantra echoing off the inside of my skull, and perhaps it doesn’t.  I’m seeking release from a battle that perhaps only death can achieve, and yet if I know one thing, it is that I don’t want to spend my life like this. 

I WANT things to matter.  I want to matter.

Life is short, and sitting up here day after day after day, cleaning this big house over and over and over as it slowly decays and depreciates before my eyes, I have let myself fall apart too.  I want to be a writer, but I have been haphazard about even trying.  I have engaged in my writing half-ass and half-heartedly, constantly making excuses for why I do not write.

When I do write, I have failed to do much with it.  I have created so much now that are like lost empty vessels, never to carry any water, never to be read by anyone.  I know not why I create them, but perhaps in this sentence I can find the beginning of an answer. 

Each word is a world unto itself, each sentence a solar system, each paragraph a galaxy.  Bringing my universe to life has meaning beyond me as its creator, even though I struggle with its value, or perhaps exactly because I do struggle. 

Yet, I know from my explorations of the heart, God favors the bold.  I want to be bold, and this life feels timid, scared and hiding.  If the world is going to destroy itself, and so far everything in my being tells me it will, then I want to go out in a vivid expansion of light bursting forth from the realization that new things are hard, but they are worth it. 

The seeds of this destruction, are the foreplay of our next conception.

I may be lost, but I’ll never give up.

I do believe, and in believing, I define more about who I am than with anything else. 

I don’t want to be wrong, but if I am, I’d rather believe and be wrong, than to not-believe and be wrong.  To not-believe and be right, would too, be cold consolation for what that means about the true nature of the world, so that's a easy dead end for me to avoid.

No, I want to believe, and I want to be right.  Maybe  I need to let go of the latter and focus on the former, but its hard.  Life is hard, isn’t it?

So much fake rhetorical confidence already oozes from the pores of America, that what is but one more deluded voice, insistent in their proclamations of ultimate victory even when their personal end is already in sight.

What bothers me is that the end is in sight.  But I can’t change that.

So do you keep chugging along, hoping to be wrong, or pull out all the stops, and gamble you are right?

My Heart in a Headlock

I stopped writing my blog because I lost confidence (again) that what I have to say means anything.

I stopped writing my novel because I got scared of the failing author's market.

I stopped writing my screenplay because I'm addicted to high grade perfection.

I stopped writing my short stories because I'm lazy and lost.

I stopped writing emails because the world is going to hell at mach five.

I stopped writing my journal because I'm tired of me.

I stopped writing.

I stop.

I Was There

I was there before the collapse, before the loss of chance, before the shackling of love to the limits of growth.  I grew up in a world of sunshine laced days, racing down the block to the cool metal poll, chalk on the sidewalk and balmy rains every afternoon.  Winning some and losing some, yet knowing the game was fair, the sun my friend.

I was there before the hate and the vitriol and the diatribe tribes propaganda propagated their profit mantra, before the fundamentalists peeled off and ex-communicated science, before we each were so willing to sacrifice the other in our own personal visage of truth, when truth meant something shared, something given and something uncertain accepted.

I was there before the abuse and the sexualization of honor, before anyone snorted meth off a toaster, before reason was overtook by blind faith and fear raped love then married her to raise their incestuous child on a reality show conceived in the test tank of a tube mogul's island party house.  I remember silence and the soft skin of lizards caught dashing between blades of solid green, a mirage fading with interconnectedness and digital everywhere and everything bleeding us into nothing.

I was there before tears stained my cheeks and hope wracked her bones on the shoals of a muse unable to see the tragedy of her song, compelled to sing yet ever hopeful to the future as the blind can never see the light yet bathe in the photons none the same.  We were opportunity and the chance was ours, slipping like a free market failure to find us the right solution in time to make different the trends that reveal unreal feelings failing to fulfill our falling call to destiny.

Biochemical Individuality, Systems Medicine & Personal Energy

The advance of modern medicine has been so profound for so many generations that most of us never pause to consider the accuracy of the fundamental principles behind most medical treatments.  Core among all sacred truths in medicine is the universality of the causes and solutions to disease.

Yet this view is finally changing as our genetic and chemical understandings increase, and many now feel that the universal approach is not sub-optimal method to heal, but actually may also be the cause of chronic disease in many individuals. 

By treating us all the same, modern medicine has missed the point that we are each dynamically individual with natural (and positive) variations across the core function of our biologic systems. In fact, as we uncover the complex interplay of genes, epi-genes and environmental factors, we now know there is a wide variety of chemical operational variation among humans.

So what is most important is not what your lab results say about the exact chemical nature of your blood or other bodily samples as compared against the mythical "normal human," but what is the interplay of your biology, your energy and your environment.

Systems medicine treats the core operations manual of the human body as an information system with DNA and genes operating not as a simple recipe to "make us," but instead, DNA is a complex decision making program that operates in the individual context and environment to express its amazing instructions into the actual cellular life that comprises each of us.

There are many gains to be had in ignoring our diversity and pushing ahead with the study of medicine that helps as many as possible, and yet, this core universal applicability model of medicine also dead ends many patients in "chronic" uncurable conditions, e.g. autism, fibromyalgia because no universal solution may exist.

Yet a "cure" may exist for these patients through a different approach to their own individual needs and expressions.  Our biochemical individuality, like our energetic individuality is from our personal source of being and purpose, and thus systems medicine asks more of its patients, just as it asks more of its doctors.

The doctors of the future must be co-collaborators with patients in manifesting health through a patient study and understanding of each individual's needs.  It means training doctors not on a disease by disease basis but on a system by system basis, focusing on the interplay between health and attitude in patients.

Likewise, patients of the future must know more about themselves.  In Bio Sense Suit terms, the pilot of the suit is in the best position to run and understand diagnostics.  Doctors will be there to help, as will an individual genome map, and yet systems medicine, if done right, empowers patients to take control of their own care and health.

The Three Modes of Your Mind

Your mind is a powerful control interface to both your body and your spirit, or energetic aspects.  Yet across all of the complex and diversified thoughts, beliefs and knowledge our minds process, there are only three modes to any mind: perception, intention and expectation.

We may be a mix of one or more modes at any time, but every human experience can be mapped to this closed set of mental operational modes. There are times of pure experience in one mode, but there are also times when all three modes unconsciously mix and obfuscate our own role in creating and allowing our personal reality. 

The goal of considering in what mode your mind is operating is to see if the mode is aligned with your goals for that thought, relationship or activity.  Moreover, being aware of the Laws of Thought, we realize that being aware means being a conscientious mind owner because different circumstances call for different mental operational modes.

For example, when performing art, it is sometimes more gratifying to forget the audience and focus on creating, i.e. to limit your perceptions and increase your intentions.  Likewise, once we understand the power of expectation on others, the ethics of relationships encourage us to own and limit our own expectations of others as a means to support their true nature.

In whatever mode, our mind is a powerful sun radiating energy and vibrations across both the primal network as well as through the various thought atmosphere's in which we participate.  Instead of an unconscious aggregation of default programming, awareness of the modes also allows us to operate across these modes in a conscious active way.

Perception is a state-of-mind in-time caused by the intersection of Intention (Love in the above drawing) and Expectation (as tempered by Knowledge in the above drawing). Perception is an aggregation of sensations, thoughts, emotions, memories and filters that streams through the mind in real-time.

Intention is the personal radiation of life content (purpose/fate) broadcast constantly from every mind (conscious or unconscious, deliberate or default) that creates their life experiences and can be measured as Flow (pure energy voltage) and Grow (energy-matter current/capacitance).  Intention is timeless and stored/formed from personal morphic fields (energetic DNA) and is carried on the same wave/particle as Expectation.

Expectation is the personal radiation of life form (allowance/limits) broadcast constantly from every mind to express or deny their Intentions and is usefully measured by Attitude (positive or negative charge) and Beliefs (flow and grow resistance) modified by cumulative Knowledge.  Expectation is time and memory-based, body-stored and Grow-dependent, i.e. fully rewritable by the Mind, and is carried on the same wave/particle as Expectation.

In the above decade-old first drawing I made to noodle out these modes, I called Flow "evolution" and "God's Plan" at the same time because I believe they are different labels for the same perceived phenomena in our lives.  We each feel we have a purpose, and that is key to personal happiness.

Countdown Now: The Power of One Human Life

Perception controls so much in our minds and therefore in our world.

Cultural blind spots are like collective denial practiced with such fervor that reality is held at bay (for a time) as one would hold an oncoming flood back with a powerful fan.  If you channel the flood waters with great care, then you can at first achieve remarkable results keeping the truth of a situation from fully manifesting.

But eventually the consequences of the forces at work manifest, and like the water held back from a bunch of hot air, reality rushes in and overwhelmingly destroys the source of resistance, but not the source of denial, for that is sadly infinite.

 If the "flood" we are in denial about was a cyclical sort of thing, a period of crises we could come together and solve at the appropriate time, then go back to normal, perhaps our denial might serve a good purpose to leave us blissfully happy as long as we can be before we turn to face the problem and solve it.  No reason to rush if we have time.

But aren't we really holding the flood waters at bay on the first floor of the house and emptying a hose from every window on every floor above?  Won't we ALL eventually drown in that kind of system?

How can we best be unflinchingly honest?  Should we even want to try?  In a world that is killing itself in every major category, from pollution and energy, to health and human care, to food supply and safety, to economic sustainability and human rights, do we want to hear the truth? 

Do we tell our kids there's a good chance they will not live to their projected life expectancy?  Do we tell them that their standard of living is going to be less than ours, that they will be paying for our mistakes their whole lives, that our selfishness ate up the good parts of Earth as quickly as free-market capitalism could allow it and we're sorry to (predictably) leave them a polluted, infected, waring time bomb?

Is it better to ignore the realities of what is going to happen in the next forty years, before our very eyes, keep our same economies and families and expect that somehow an additional 3-4 billion children added to our world will somehow make it better?

In planning our own merry little lives and families, it's romantic to be in denial, to enjoy the last generation with the luxury to do it and let hope and faith bridge the gap not even science or math can bridge any more.   Yet won't all these and more come due within the lifetime of a child born today?

Why would you want to break down these walls of denial to see such foreboding truths?  I don't think many do, and I can't say I blame them.  I just wish I could put my own blinders back on.

C'mon, Let's Get "Real"

What is real? and what is not real? 

Surely the people, places and things around us are real.  We can touch them, feel them, and they have mass and physical dimensions and/or biometrics we can sense.  They exist outside of us, and they are perceived by and interact with others who can confirm their reality with us.

What about ideas, things like freedom, love or justice?  Are they real?  By the above definition, they should be because they exist outside of us and we all perceive them as concepts, embodied perhaps with different memories and symbols specific to our own life experiences and knowledge bases, but still a shared reality of ideas.

What about your mind?  Is it real?  We can touch and feel your brain, your neurons and supporting systems that our best science suggests is the seat of the "mind," but we cannot point out a definitive, finite biologic structure that is one's "mind."

Your mind also does not exist outside of you, and is not independently perceived or interacted with by others.  They talk or email you, and they can see that you have a mind but they cannot independently access it without going through you. 

So is your mind real?  Maybe, maybe not.  Could it be an illusion brought on by self-awareness, or is it the seat of self-awareness>  What if your mind is not contained in one organ or system like our brain and nerves, but is somehow anchored in every part of you, from small to large?  Are cells the basic unit?  are atoms?

What about thoughts; are thoughts real?  Thoughts are both the input and output of your mind, and once, somewhere real shared ideas like freedom, love and justice began as thoughts in the mind of one or a few humans.  If they are now "real," then must not all thoughts also be "real?"

"But Chris, what you're saying is that if someone, anyone, anywhere, EVER thought of something, no matter how casually or in passing, then that thing is real?"

Yes: perception, expectation and intention create reality, constantly and always.  Every thing any conscious life thinks about becomes a part of reality, whether shared or not, whether initiated from outside stimulus or simply from thinking within. 

Thoughts are real.  Good or bad, "right" or "wrong," each exerting an influential force on our selves and our world.  Some grow, mature and attract more and more attention, get practiced over and over, by more and more people and those thoughts become beliefs and values and principles like freedom and love and justice.

Clearly, something the mind does to thought, something our collective minds do to shared thoughts, makes them more real, more concrete and more powerful in our lives.  Yet one new thought can always change the way we think, and thus change the world.

Perhaps our mind's are the true and only limits of reality.  Perhaps our shared part of the collective whole is such that no one mind truly exists without the infrastructure of all the minds together, and it is not just all of our body that is our mind, but all of everything, everywhere and everyone.

We are each a "real" individual body and mind, and yet that reality only exists, only finds meaning in the context of our collective minds.

We think, therefore I am

Hug Me Wire Mommy

"From the least to the most important, the affection and respect of others are vital for our happiness." --the 14th Dalai Lama

We covet our individuality, strutting like meticulous birds-of-paradise preening and posing for some unseen constantly watchful potential mate, without realizing that it is the communal aspects of our own being that are both our mate and muse.

We cannot be happy without others, and yet we only want them to come close to us under our own conditions and permissions.  From first meeting to groove-n-move to family-status and beyond, all relationships impact individual happiness, which is dependent on relations with and relation to "others" for a fulfilled daily experience.

The need for interaction and the special power of both affection and respect is physics-driven, expressed in our biology and complex systems of behavior, related or tied in some cases to reproductive instincts and in others, mixed with all instincts as part of the whole of the being--a critical self-development process resulting in positive expressions of affection and respect or their negative analogues of violence and contempt.

Interaction changes us, whether great or small, whether we like it or not, time is change and motion is change.  We already hurtle millions of miles per hour in multiple dimensions due to the rotation of our planet, the revolution of our solar system and the relative spin and speed of the Milky Way.

So change is constant, and yet the POWER of attention to direct change is astounding.  Beyond simple coincidence and into the realm of constructive relational interdependence, modern physics is learning the power of the observer and observed merge in a unified field of something.

Affection is a powerful operator in that unified field, call it whatever you want, e.g. "dark energy" or "consciousness."  Negative affection and disrespect, e.g. "violence" are also a powerful operators, but I think the data shows that affection has a stronger multiplier affect, a stronger creation-enabling resonance than the hollow energetic echo created by violence.

Affection and especially intense, passionate affection is perhaps the most powerful, most desired drug known to us as social-bio beings, and yet affection exists along a spectrum and balance among the types of affection seems also to be a multiplier increasing behavior. We can be affectionate in action, but also in word and thought.  Affection of thought is in fact the foundation for all true respect.

Closing down any port of giving or receiving affection, from lover to friend to kind stranger mode will damage the individual and effectively infect their self-esteem operating system with constant glitches due to the lacking positive and needed impact of the missing affection in a person's life.

Affection is different in every context, among all beings, and yet it seems to me that one's supply and balance of appropriate affection one's life is directly proportional to the amount and consistency of their respect for others.  The more our needs for affection are met, the more respectful of others we can be, and alternatively, the more our needs for contact, giving and receiving, are not met, the more we seem to almost lack conscious bandwidth to "afford" respect of others, or we use disrespect as an excuse or explanation for our unmet needs.

Perhaps this is because lack of affection often manifests itself by diminishing self-respect, and without respect of the Self, no alleged respect of others comes of free choice from an unconditional heart.  Affection is vital to our ability to grow, respect is vital to our ability to flow, and both depend on our interaction with others.

We are all in this together.

And You Go...

And you go

And I know

Nothing Lives

Nothing grows

 

I could live a thousand years

And never come back

To this Place

 

Why do you fight me so

I don’t know

I want to let it go

 Away

 

It was written in that

Great book that somebody told me

When I was young

Had all the answers but

 

I didn’t find them there

I didn’t find them anywhere

I looked for you

But you’d gone

 

Show your face to me

Show your face to me

Like some mystery

 

I won’t believe

In what you want me to

I won’t be what you said

I never could be and be true

But you know

 

We’re alive

Today

This very

Moment could tell you that my

My heart would never leave you

I’ve always been there but

You never seem to notice

Me

Me

 

Learning to be free

Your Astounding Magnificence

I drew down into human form yesterday, and I sat there, marveling at the astounding magnificence of being here whilst still there.  I felt the hair on my arms stir with the currents, chaotic and many, bombarding my senses, and I reached into my suit and I slowed everything down.

Maintenance Matters.

Time speeds up and covenants slip to promises slip to arrogant abrogation of the rights of others, and the whole machine is twisted into something so much less than it can be.

Yesterday I sat in my suit and I contemplated friendship and union and peace and justice on the microscopic level.  The lymphocyte doesn't hate the bacteria; they just can't be together in that place and time.

Building blocks locked in unions some may not prefer, the cell begets the organ begets the system, begets the being, the family, the community.  One day one cell changed everything, and yet one suit cannot change the nature of the universe.  Or can it?

Time slows down and humor hardens to beliefs which hardens to prejudices which feeds fear and hate and habit, displacement further and further away from the ability of the suit to change all that, the power within reach if reaching for the sake of the stretch were more valued.

Exercise Experience.

I saw myself in the mirror, not just in the suit, but in everything in all parts possible plus one.  I thought about oneness at the homo sapien level, and I started to cry.  To care is to feel the problems before us, and yet compassion must be married with action.

Time is relative to all, and laws change, and ecosystems evolve. 

My love for you shines on and on and on...

I Am My Brother's Keeper; I am My Sister's Keeper

"Cultivating a close, warmhearted feeling for others automatically puts the mind at ease.  From the least to the most important event, the affection and respect we have for others are vital to our own happiness."  --Dalai Lama

America is for EVERYONE

They call us un-American, but I think the GOP conservatives are truly the un-American ones with their desires to legislate morality in direct conflict with the most fundamental and basic rights granted by the Constitution: life, liberty and the pursuit of individual happiness.  

I also think McCain is a hero, and I was a fan of his before this general campaign really disappointed me with the people he choose to run his campaign, the topics and tactics they took and especially the repeated, repeated use of gay people and minorities as "the enemy" rallying cry to feed their angry crowds hate and fear.

Some of the videos of people outside the GOP rallies truly scared me, and how those dangerous people react is going to be the key to our collective ability to save our country.  If God calls you to be a moral person, you should work to make our world more moral in the individual decisions people in tough places are making and not abstractly in limiting existence (which you can't) or limiting behaviors you don’t like (which you doubly can't!)

Reducing people's rights and using minorities as targets or examples of our enemies or "terrorist" collaborators—like the GOP regularly does, is not right, and I don't think John McCain has ever agreed with any of that.  The people around him did him a disservice to his legacy, and I hope he lasts and has interest to stay in govt long enough to restore his reputation.

Whether gay Americans, Muslim Americans or black, white, green, red, yellow Americans, the tear-inducing beauty of my country to me is that we already are the world's melting pot.  A lot of white, Christian America doesn’t not like this, and some of them openly want "their America," but they need to read the Constitution.  "Their America" is not in that document because the founding fathers were smart enough to understand that in a diverse society of many, we must all, above all and first, support the independence of the Government from control by any one religion or group.

America is a test if humans can love and live together, or hate and die together.  If we pass, the world may live and gain sustainability, and if we fail, I fear tears and bloodshed are ahead for anyone left alive.

We are the grand experiment of the coming global community that the Earth has become—like it or not.  We cannot go backwards, and the enlightened principles of freedom and equality under one State AND a separation of religions and civic rule are critical to ensure a safe and secure future for ALL Americans.  The angry, bitterly divisive alternative is one of war, violence, separation into racial, economic and "lifestyle" camps, and the country we will leave our children will not be one worth having as it will be full of such fear, debt and crime.

Instead, I think a pretty big majority (for our bitterly divided electorate) stood up for a leader whom they think (or hope) represents the best of that "real America," the America that is in the Constitution, and they are strengthened by the steady hand of a cool leader who is smart, deliberative and committed to ALL Americans and not just his unconstitutional social agenda, big donors or the wealthy class of which he is a member.

One startling metric of the election to me is found in the issue of taxes.  McCain and the GOP use taxes with the common people to try and demonize Democrats as "socialists" or "redistributors of the wealth," and yet in this election, the people who make $250,000 a year, the only people whose taxes go up under Obama's plan, the people who would get much, much, much better tax treatment under McCain, they voted for Obama 62%!!!

What does this say?  To me, it says that even those who are right now being asked to help feel some more tax pain for the benefit of the nation are in overwhelming majority (me included!) saying, "Hell Yeah, I'm doing fine, I'll pay a little more to help with poverty and healthcare and education."  For anyone who thinks of "the big picture," this is a no-brainer because a consumer-driven economy cannot function if the basic average consumer cannot afford the basics of living.

Some may call it socialism, but I call it Effective Democracy, when the State uses the taxes (wealth) it is already collecting and spends it on things and in places that benefit the majority of the people in the society (spreading it around).  The is the highest and best purpose of government. 
If we are to live on this planet without destroying it or each other, we must design our economies and cultures to support the most efficient distribution of the necessities of life, food, shelter, healthcare, and education., and we must protect ALL citizens’ rights to individual freedom and due process.

We have lived shortsighted in the past, and especially in the recent past.  Spending and spending, exploiting and destroying the environment, all the while knowing this cannot last, knowing we are using a system our grandkids certainly cannot use because it is so out of kilter with sustainability.  We need to change that, and change it fast I fear if we are to have any hope...can it be done? 

<Getting down off my soap box>

I don't know if it can, but I have hope for the first time in a long time, and I have young friends and family who have the chance to live for the first time in your adult lives under a President that doesn't throw away our best laws, values and traditions to do what he personally thinks is best justified by some external threat to the State, and instead we will now see a President who respects the office, respects the Constitution and respects the Nation enough to tell us the truth.

Many in this family and this nation disagree with me, and some think they have the right to define morality in law.  They believe Christians have the ONLY path to God and salvation, and I guess anything is excusable to them in that kind of a "holy war" and with that exclusive endorsement by the almighty. 

They don't see how very illegal and UNAmerican their views are, they think their personal conduit to God is so exclusively correct, that it justifies ignoring or rewriting the equality and freedom out of our Constitution.  They do not value the continuing independence of our State, but want to create a Christian government that enforces their view of God’s laws.

But that's not me, and it never will be.

As I get older, and without my own kids (thankfully, really!:-) I find myself more impassioned to fight for a government that respects and protects ALL.  As I see the amazing beauty of my nieces, nephews, and now all the kids they are making too, I want us to leave them a world working well together, not fighting and dividing and seeking to exploit the worst in each other instead of lift up the best in each other.

"Some say I am a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.  I hope someday you'll join us (although I know you already have!), and the world will live as ONE."

The Triumph of Hope, The Challenge of Love

America is emerging from a long brutal Presidential election that pitted the politics of hope against the politics of fear, and with the election of our first non-white President, hope has triumphed in America. 

Fear was marginally set aside in some places and dramatically set aside in others as Americans came together to create a landslide of those who believe in the promise of our great nation, who are dedicated to work for a future we still believe can be ours and to reject the division of our diverse peoples into separate camps of race and gender and religion. 

Hope has triumphed, but love still has many great challenges ahead.  Fifty-three percent of us may be celebrating this victory, but at least forty-six percent of our fellow Americans are troubled and worried what this next President will mean for them and their loved ones.  Love is challenged to quell their fears, to stir their hope and to bring us all back together again as one nation under many visions of God.

Love is challenged to reconcile those who are still gripped by fear.  Love is challenged to bring all Americans under the fold of this new movement of hope, to see our shared possibilities through the lens of the best that can be and not the worse that can be.  Love is challenged to mend the families, friendships, businesses and private groups of citizens that have been divided in their choice of candidate, but ultimately unified in their great love and commitment to our nation of the people, by the people and for the people.

Barack Obama is a great American, but around the world, he is even more than that.  He is a symbol of the return of the American Dream, a rejection of the unilateral “go-it-alone” American foreign policy of the Bush Administrations and a demonstration that especially in America it doesn’t matter who you are, but what you do most of all—that anyone among the world’s poor and disenfranchised can work hard and rise to power to change their world.

At home, President-elect Obama is celebrated by many of us as the greatest example yet of the American dream of hard work, self-reliance and equality among all regardless of race, creed, color, orientation or origin.  Yet Obama is also feared by many Americans, unsure of him and perhaps taken in my negative propaganda or outright lies. 

But today and tomorrow can be very different from yesterday if we can but let yesterday go and focus on today.  Today and tomorrow are about our NOW vibration, and we have complete control over that.  You have complete control over that, and each moment we all make the choice to engage our fear, or to quell it, to reject our natural tendencies to love or to embrace and express them.

As someone who feared and yes, even hated the past eight years, I understand what it feels like to have a President that you do not agree with, do not relate to because of his policies, attitudes or upbringing, and yet over that time my heart has learned time and again that no matter who is in charge of the White House, we each have a choice to love or to hate, to hope or to fear.

Last minute, I was in Ohio as a voter protection volunteer for the Obama campaign on Election Day, and I was honored to do my very small part to help elect Barack Obama.  Some fear him as a secret agent for America’s enemies, while others raise the stakes to make him some kind of evil Anti-Christ, and yet those who invest in their fear so much say so much more about themselves than they do about Barack Obama.

We each must look inside and challenge our fears with hope, challenge our hate and discrimination with love.  Barack Obama is just one person, as I am just one person, and you are just one person.  We each always have a choice: to love or to fear, to act in anger or to act in positivity, to believe in the best or actualize the worst.

Hope will never eradicate fear, like love will never have any meaning without hate, and yet the triumph of hope in this election ignites a beacon for all Americans, for all people of the world.  Although we face many challenges, I am confident that love is on the rise and the powers of truth and light will always prevail in the end.

Believe in yourself, seek guidance from your Gods and be kind to your fears, but do not indulge them.  If we can do this together, I know hope will provide all the fuel we need to face our challenges with love.

Protect Our Forests

Forests are important because they are the cradle that nurtured us when we first evolved from the seas, dark and foreboding at first, warm and supportive once entered, the nexus between all plants and animals, the meeting place of more than just minds, but also of bodies and life energies entwined, enveloping entropy evolving ever onward towards our great what's next. 

Forests are our community square, our childhood home and our retirement plan rolled into one, and forests deserve our gratitude, our appreciation and our dedicated effort to nurture and protect them as they once did for us.

Where Am I?

I push forward, damp vines like kelp drape towering blindscape columns of green and yellow all around me, waving in unison yet anchored from the heavens above, lowered to me long ago somewhere beyond my memory of what came before.

I push with my hands, recoiling at the odd texture, the slippery memory sliding around me like a capsule, a chrysalis, across my fingers through my prints, individual yet undividuated, simmering pregnant with smoldering intent just below my skin, just below my consciousness.

Consciousness, like a sharp echo in a white sterile room, a dry lick across my parched and swollen tongue.  No words.  No motion.  Just cold wet stickiness closing in like age slowly creeps up on youth to wrap us in wrinkles, right-of-ways and regrets for the road not taken.

I gather and displace, gather and displace, making my way towards something glowing through the fronds of hanging something surrounding and binding me, but not as like before.  Not before he came. 

Inspired beyond inspiration, I feel perspiration bead on my head, then role down the valley between my bands of muscle bracketing my spine, cradling my consciousness as represented here, as stored in the electro-chemical vehicle I pilot.  I steer off the road to refuel again?

Have I been here before?

Haven't we all?

I start the engine on my "machine" again, and I gun it back out into the forest, eyes burning towards the future, lips puckered in a whistle that blows before me, billowing the vines from my way, revealing a path worn by elders, tended by guides.

A giant frond slaps me in the face, getting through all my plans, chaos reminder that each breath a potential butterfly in Madagascar begetting a typhoon in the great Pacific.  In the spur of the moment I laugh at the unexpected.

Uncertainty, you are my friend now.

I know not where I am, but I have been here before.

And here we go again

A Message From Beyond on Death and Rememebrance

Remember that energy persists, love persists, knowledge persists, spirit persists and the bonds we form in each lifetime continue on and on, cycle through cycle, body through body, love to fear to love again.  It doesn't make the pain of losing a loved one any easier, but is nonetheless so very important.

We fear that death is random, but I suspect that the truth is much grander and much more commonplace to our non-corporeal friends who surround us every day.  We are afraid to believe that we are so important as to deserve such devotion, yet regardless of whether you believe death is fate or choice or dumb luck, it still strikes the living with that cold blade, clean and firm, final-feeling.  In twenty or thirty or even a hundred years, it would probably feel the same.

It is supposed to feel that way though, isn't it?  As the dark defines the light, so death helps define our lives.

I bet a part of your heart knows that death is definitely NOT final, not complete and is in fact only a separation that will be rejoined again, perhaps as it has been many times before, laughing in reunion at one's spiritual temple...."I got back first this time...."  "Yeah, well you missed some good parties!" <laughs><hugs><plansfornextvisit> 

I believe that the calling to be a soul that leaves others here in untimely death, especially in youth and in love is a high calling, a hard road, but an honorable one, and one that serves great purpose in our polar extremes of mortal coils and everlasting lifelights, emotional charges and spiritual vibrations. 

We feel our own limits or lack thereof as we experience the limits of others, and through loss, we change our limits too, don't we?  We want the enlightened change but not the loss, want to eat the meal, but not pay the chef--it is only human.

In my mind's eye, I see the love that surrounds each of us, both in this plane and from beyond.  A part of me is called to say we are not alone in our daily lives~~decidely not alone! 

Yet our attendance to life, especially after the death of a loved one, and our struggle for meaning in light of that loss are important.  Our great fight to find light among the dark, even years after loss is also very important, and so very cherished and blessed by those not in physical form who witness it. 

You are lifted up and made light, even when you feel heavy and dark.

The lessons of non-limitations come fleetingly to our fractured and distributed minds, and for many, those lessons may never be susceptible to expression in words.  But the lessons come in our lives all the same, percolating in the frontal cortex and sweating up our palms, populating our dreams and mashed up in our tears. 

With nary a care for the burnt hole left in us by our loss, death crashes the party, and decades later it still casts its shadow, urging our cynicism as it whispers in our ear that the Gods are as dead as our loved one...But they are not.

For love can conquer fear as the cycle of true life remains unbroken, complete with or without our understanding.  The universe continuously foists choice and opportunity to each of us blessed enough to be alive and aware, so even among death, life goes on. 

Be present and know that you are loved, and I believe the greatest good will unfold for you.  All other meaning is transient until the reunion, so comfort yourself in the uncertainties. 

For some things are not to be understood, but simply to be experienced, to be alive within.  To be in this place at this time is enough.  Anything more is bonus. 

So play in your body, and celebrate each moment of your trip with remembrance--but even more with imagination and gratitude.  Perhaps your journey through the death of a loved one will surprise you with a feeling that overcomes your sense of loss with a hope that tempers grief with faith in the wisdom of that All That Is.

Through equalization, peace and perhaps communion with the non-corporeal that is constantly surrounding us, aware of our feelings and seeking to join in comforting grace with us, reunion is more than possible.  It is promised.  It is real.

But the promise of a loved one, already lost or still here, is always never further away than the opening of our own hearts to the silent part of us that chooses to be silent no more.  

It doesn't change a thing about our loved one being gone too soon and having left this time in too hard a way, but then again it could also change everything, couldn't it?

The Never-Ending Constantly-Increasing Growth Chimera

Like it or not, you are on the Earth at a time when the prevailing social and economic systems are in free-fall acceleration, unchecked by another option, we all fall into this one where we are. 

Things are constantly changing in our world, and more than that, the rate and pace of change is itself accelerating.  Just as you accommodate one life transformation with changes in thought, word and action, your senses tell you that the situation has changed again, and you too must change. 

Change or die.

Our ancestors surely faced these conditions and their reactions dictated their fate as they faced death from predators every day, death from starvation, from disease or ignorance and violence from others in their families and tribes. 

Our collective civilization was meant to balance the needs of the many with the needs of the one, and to protect the right of each life to be fully lived.

Yet from the great myriad of economies among human tribes and cultures, the modern global "free market" economic reality is accepted as "The One" true form of resource exploitation and delivery of the basic necessities of life.  We have no competition of ideas, and Capital is King.

In an uncrowded and unpolluted, yet dangerous world, everyone was willing to throw it over their shoulder and keep moving on to the next consumable.  For generations and generations through the rise and fall of empires, faster was always better, more was, well, more!  

Even now, well aware of the cliff, we accelerate towards unsustainability with the exponential passion for overshooting that only a lemming drinking beer in designer jeans and texting on its iPhone could muster.
 
We may pretend we have solutions and three-point plans to address the challenges.  I even develop quite a few three-point plans for myself in my personal life.  Working hard to make that change, and that acceleration work for me and not against me....if I can.

But really that's just hedging our bets, isn't it?  Don't we truly need radical and immediate change if we are to be capable of fixing our growing problems of pollution, food, energy and population?

If we are to survive, must not we replace this never-ending, constantly-accelerating chimera of growth with a model of contribution and benefaction that protects opportunity for ALL?

User's Guide to Your Bio Sense Suit

Welcome to Earth!  You have been equipped with a state-of-the art Homo Sapien Explorer unit including standard and extended Mind-to-Matter capabilities.  You have been here before.  You will be here again.

Enjoy Yourself!

In order to speed your Reprogramming and Power Up Phase, the following guidelines have been prepared:

     1.  You are a Multi-Layered Lens of mostly water, focusing Energy into a constantly changing signature that beams away from you every moment like a sun shining light, heat and photons.

     2. You Flow in constant current, and You Grow in constant change.  You cannot stop either.  Energy leaves you in the form of signature, heat and thought.

     3.  You are surrounded by supportive, loving intelligences of higher frequency that are by nature always eager and available to help you, including a part of your Self that exists before and after this life.

     4.  You have a Purpose, and many emotions in constant flux to guide you to it.  But your emotions ultimately only come in two types: Positive or Negative. 

     5. At any time, your Attitude and Morphic Field of Self is either Positive or Negative, Allowing or Resisting, in Love or in Fear.  You always have the choice to change your attitude.

     6. Positivity optimizes Purpose. Your Attitude controls your Expectations which filter your Perceptions and define your Intentions through your Personal Thought Atmosphere and Morphic Field of Self.

     7.  Your senses constantly perceive internal and external information from many sources on many channels, most of which is subconscious updating of your Models of Self (emotions) and Other (other travelers and objects).

     8.  Conscious You evaluates, filters and "discusses" perceptions, models and outcomes with an Internal You--your "Self" to process emotions, make decisions, make thoughts and take actions.

     9.  You emit the resulting thoughts, emotions, circuits, signatures and behaviors in space-time over time, creating a unique path and focusability of your individual water Lens.

    10.  Your emissions aggregate and resonate within Morphic Fields, Thought Atmospheres and other Energy Structures, contributing your unique Energy and Matter to the universe.

Using Attention and Affection to Re-Architect Your Suit's Power Matrix

Through focus and flow your Suit allows you to express your individual, highly important purpose.  It also is the filter for you to experience all meaning.

Focus is the deliberate creation of attention to manifestation, and flow is your natural carefree enjoyment of imagination in a life of affection.

As you become more comfortable with your Self as pilot and creator, the importance of of your own kinetic energy becomes clear: attention increases focus and focus increases flow.

Attention Increases Focus

Giving your attention to something increases the flow of energy to that subject, to that part of your Self, to that part of others and the world around you.  Positive or negative, worry or hope, each gains power and force through our attention.

 Resonating with a deliberate intention feels good.  It's like dancing or making love.  You just know how to do it, so seek to maximize these kinds of natural experiences by focusing on what feels good and NOT doing what feels bad as much as you can.

It sounds simple, but you'd be surprised how often you indulge focusing on negative things.  Try stopping that, and see how your Suit responds.

Affection Increases Flow

We are basically switches in an energetic sense, and so we are meant to move the energy through us, to work with our flow and our kinetic energy and to use attention and intention to change the energy.

Maybe you were hurt, or abused or disappointed, or betrayed, and maybe in turn you hurt someone, or abused someone or disappointed or betrayed someone you loved.  You passed it on, natural as can be.

But by giving and receiving affection with awareness and compassion, we can take in one thing and put out something else.  We can forgive, and we can create with our love to overcome any hate.

This Bio Sense Suit won't last forever, and how you use this Suit on this visit will definitely impact any future visits, so use your attention to be affectionate, to your Self, to your loved ones, to everyone.

COMING NEXT: FUELING UP YOUR SUIT~~IMAGINATION, MEDITATION & ARTICULATION

Intention Power: From Awareness to Deliberate Creation

Once you are aware that you are the pilot of your own life, it is possible to focus your awareness and harness the power available to all of us in order to deliberately create anything new in your life or deliberately heal, correct or let go of unwanted things in your life.

Now that you are aware, the game changes, and you may hide from your awareness because you sometimes don't like the responsibility the realization makes you feel, but like it or not, you are a deliberate creator.

It is up to you how often you do it with joy and pride in what you create.

Focus on the thing you want, and most importantly, be disciplined to not rip your dreams down.  Let it live, and it will bloom.

I Choose Free Will

I struggle with choice.  I have too many choices, and so many of them seem equally good to me, so I don’t want to give any of them up. 

I struggle with consequence, dreaming like most humans that my denial or luck can save me from the consequences of choice, hoping that I can set another curve, change the impact of choice on people and things in time.  

Maybe I can, and maybe that is what bothers me most?

I’m neither a victim nor a purely altruistic creator of consequence in my life, but I am, like most, a mixture of pure and not-so-pure thoughts and desires, actions and deeds.  I look at the people in my life, and I am in awe of my luck and fate.  I feel blessed to be married to the best person I have ever known, devote and loving, hot and sexy, passionate and loyal.

He is everything I could ever ask for, and I knew I loved him from the very moment I first laid eyes on a picture of him.

I may sometimes become confused by my limitations, by thinking that I am “alone” in the sense of disconnected and isolated from source and from others, but as I begin to recognize myself as a multi-dimensional being, supported by and perhaps even created by the cooperation of other non-corporeal beings, I’m learning that there is a lot less coincendence than we like to think there is here in the Matter-Energy World we call Earth.

And Thanks be to Will for That!

Bio Sense Suit Communications: Context & Kinetic Energy

Wherever you find yourself at this moment in the Egg Universe, you and your Bio Sense Suit exist in a unique personal context.  You may share it with other sentient beings, yet because every sentient visitor's perception is different, you exist in a unique of Universe of One.  

Understanding this fact, and learning to properly explore and populate this critical personal universe is fundamental to getting the most out of your Bio Sense Suit, especially for Communications with your Higher or Original Self and with your personal Complex-Energy Collective.

Because perception warps our processing of stimuli, there is no objective perspective available to you or anyone currently vested in a Bio Sense Suit.  Because your expectations build most of what you see right before you look or act, the resulting local-memory stored in your Suit is always biased.  The resulting accounts of past events are best treated as one part sensory data and one part emotional justification data for current Suit conditions. 

Because your Suit's locally-stored view of the past greatly influences your Suit's immediate future, you have been built with redundant systems for self-evaluation and dynamic updating of local memories.  It is important to use your Suit's higher functions to regularly quality check your memories, beliefs and opinions with your Higher Self or Collective.  Often you will find paired or past Suit programs best removed as unnecessary to your current goals, see Reprogramming Your Suit.

The power of your Mind to create or remove associations and possibilities is paramount, especially in your mind's role as the Pilot Control Interface (PCI) of your Suit.  Your awareness of the PCI and your ability to change any of its parameters or conceptualizations means you are only limited by your imagination for routes to access to the stored power of the kinetic energy of the Spirit behind your Suit.

If it makes "sense" to you, then by definition, you experience meaning and can evaluate that meaning against your sense of purpose.  As your Higher Self separated from your Matter-Energy Self and was left behind in the Energy Field, there was an agreement between the two of you as to your purpose here in this lifetime, and that covenant serves as both the blueprint for your suit this trip as well as the authority for questions of purpose or meaning. 

Progress towards purpose is represented by the current speed and bandwidth of your personal Qi as compared against the expected personal Qi of the originating intention for this lifetime.  Or put another way, your built-in emotional preferences for passion and integrity, satisfaction and equity and non-attachment and compassion are a guidance and navigation system for optimizing Flow (speed) and Grow (bandwidth) on this personalized trip of your own choosing.

Because each suit is powered by the kinetic, or stored energy within the suit as represented by the Spirt/Mind/Body combination at any one time, the power available to the Suit fluctuates.  Upon starting this specific journey, you began with the kinetic energy leftover from your last trip, but once you are here, your free will modifies that starting point to greater or lesser speeds and bandwidth based upon the value and karmic consequences of your choices.

Over the course of each visit, you increase or decrease the total kinetic energy of your whole being as well as that of your Collective(s), and upon re-unification between visits, your changed levels of personal Qi may be utilized in designing the architecture or conditions of your next Bio Sense Suit.  At higher and higher levels of speed and bandwidth, new and exciting forms of visitation not yet open to you become enabled.

Thus, your Suit's personal Qi energy flow characteristics, your awareness of them and your ability to use the PCI for deliberate creation enables many forms of complex energy-based communications.  In this way, your deliberate and directed focused resonance of energy from your personal Qi becomes the exclusive power source for all higher Suit functions including communication with the Energy field beyond your Higher Self and direct manipulation of the Matter field through thought and intention. 

In addition, your Bio Sense Suit is intelligently designed and produced through the global architecture of the universe to self-operate even without awareness of the PCI or any higher functions.  It exists within a contextual energy system that keeps all Suits constantly connected to the Network, to their Higher Selves as well as to each other, whether the occupant of the suit knows it or not.

The kinetic energy of any specific context creates an aggregated generic Qi that runs through and powers the basic functions of most Bio Sense Suits.  In some rare cases, travelers unleash enough of their spirit's kinetic energy to power all functions of their Suit independently, and off-Network travel becomes available, e.g. see Jesus or Buddha.

For most, however, our integration into contextual Qi streams means environmental conditions can greatly impact our perceptions and experience.  In cases where context is so severe as to degrade the value of that energy, personal spiritual kinetic power can be used to power your Suit, your neighbor's suit and really for any other purpose.  If you're unsure, just ask.

Scale is everything when it comes to calculating the kinetic energy of an object, an atom or a galaxy, and in fact, the actual equations used are different depending upon the context.  Likewise, the amplitude and frequency of actual personal Qi energy flow is not usefully compared to another Suit's Qi flow or even to the global Qi flow, but is only usefully compared to the personal intention/model/ purpose for this visit. 

Success is not defined as having a stronger Qi than others, nor even a more robust flow, but is instead defined by achievement of purpose and experience of meaning, i.e. did you meet the goals you created when you conceived this trip?  You set this up, so only you can determine the success of each experience or relationship towards your goal.

Yes, this is hard to do when you can't remember the goal, but that's part of the fun and joy of living in a rainbow Bio Sense Suit. The universality of experience is a basic component of each Suit, and critical to the operation of the Network as a whole. 

You are a node in a diverse and divergent collection of nodes--a Network of complex energy-matter beings, each equal and free to choose based on individual intention, each split into an energy-only part (Higher Self) and an energy-matter part (Suit) and each supported unequivocally by all other nodes whether purely made of energy (guides and teachers) or matter-energy (fellow travelers).

With your new knowledge of the non-local components to your Suit's power and communication systems, we hope you have more clarity on how context and kinetic energy are vital to all communications.  Context informs the actual vibrations of all thoughts and expressions, and context is vital for the experience of meaning and the evaluation of purpose.

Simultaneously, the kinetic energy, alignment, charge and spin of the thinker or actor informs the default kinetic energy for the new thought, action or communication that are spawned with your Suit.  Spawn Away!

COMING NEXT: Using Attention and Affection to Re-Architect Your Suit's Power Matrix

You Cannot Be Destroyed

You are a blended being of matter and energy that never truly ceases to exist. 

Although the parts of you that are made of matter, like your body, may be overcome by disease or age, there is still a part of you, a pattern, a spirit, an imprint of a soul, a set of energy signatures that is reunited and continues on in some form even after "death."

You are an individual unit of energetic intelligence split into two discrete yet important parts: the matter-energy you, and the energy-only you.  While you are here on Earth experiencing this now, there is still a portion of your collective intelligence that remains in a discrete portion of the Energy Field, whether you are aware of it or not.

This "Higher Self" is an additional sense or organ that although denied by most Western science, is actually vital to your daily living, as much a part of you as your hand or heart or brain.  Recognized in many Eastern cultures, it is often called "Qi" (chi) and is often translated as life-force, energy, spirit or flow.

Like your heart and lungs work together to allow you to live, your Mind and Self/Qi work together to make you individually you.  In fact, the Mind is the control interface for all of the basic and higher functions enabled by contact with and influence over your energetic Self still present in the Energy field. 

As such, your Qi is a dynamic stream or pattern, vibrating here within you now, but also immediately interconnected with a greater flow of all Qi's combined.  Your higher Self may be mostly energy, but here daily life it is expressed as the dynamic emotional pattern of the present experience. 

And that is why "peace of mind" provides the ultimate guidance for purpose and meaning in our lives.  "Purpose," and "meaning" cannot be defined, let alone verified, without access to your Higher Self, and so awareness of and interaction with your higher self, your stream of Qi is a proven path to peace and joy.

Because you exist in every moment as part energy, part matter, and because your "mind" is also part energy and part matter, you cannot now experience exactly what it is like to be pure energy or what you'll "think" or "feel" when you eventually transform back into a pure energy being, but with focus and faith, your Qi and Self provide a darn close approximation.

Energy may be transferred from one form to another, or even into matter through eventual decay or destruction, but it all eventually transforms back into pure energy again.  Energy is never destroyed, so You are never destroyed, only processed by the natural operation of our world from one form of existence into another into another into another...

You've Got Me So....

"Give me the words, and I'll say them like I mean it," begins a song I recently discovered, and I can't seem to get enough of it.  I often play it before I sit down to blog...

I'm really scared about all of the stuff on the blog here.  I'm scared of trying to write a book.  I mean, who am I to think my ideas have any value?  Why does any of this matter?

Since I was a young boy, I've had adults be more like friends.  Yet with those friendships, they invariably put some kind of head trip on me about my own potential, my own responsibility, the value of my voice.

Now I'm old enough to know that everyone goes through this, whether or not they feel force-fed a new model for human thought and human interaction.  Everyone wants their words to make their life worthwhile, to make themselves deserving of what comes next. 

I want to be worthy, to deserve the visions I see of how we could all be together in joy and peace.

I don't know what will happen from the blog or the book.  Maybe nothing, or maybe as I have dreamed since I was a little kid, there is a reason for me to be doing all of this.  Maybe it is a very, very important reason in the form of people reading the information, in them taking it further, believing more, trying harder in their own lives.

Maybe I'm not the only one struggling like this, and maybe I shouldn't be so afraid, so worried.

The question of to write or not to write, to do the book or not do it seems still a daily struggle for me.  The more I know, the less I know, and yet this moment in time is just as important as the next, this entry as cathartic to birth as the next.

I never know when I will touch your heart, whether you are here or in the future, whether you are only inside me, a future me or truly other people, coming together through thought to manifest great changes in our world.

All I know is I can't stop trying.  I won't stop trying.

Experience, Descripton & Communication

There is only ONE Experience, yet INFINITE descriptions expressed in TWO Forms of communication.

The sun shines down on my face, and I raise my eyes skyward.  Taking off my glasses, I close my eyelids and feel the thin skin of them warm, flushing my face with heat and light, and for me, with hope.  I take sustenance and encouragement.

But on the same day, in the same place, under the same sun, another person might feel hot, oppressed and chased by demons that shine from the very heavens, constantly dodging them, destroying their hope.

Experience is universal, yet unique for all.  We all have “it”, and sometimes, standing there together we experience some things for which there are no words.  We have all had this experience, and the phenomena has been much studied, yet words or no words, we are still taking divergent descriptions from even these shared moments.

Everyone brings their own description to every experience.  We actually perceive things differently, sometimes vastly divergent based upon the exact same stimulus—different feelings, different conclusions and different needs vis-a-vie our shared collective.

This is where communication comes into play, and it is where our global civilization must quickly make some key decisions about how we treat each other.  How we organize our collective to care for, nurture and accept the varied needs and contributions of ALL.

We fight over who’s "right" and who’s "wrong," yet this is like me telling the person made hot by the sun that it’s really not hot.  It misses the basic construct of the universe’s intelligence/life/spirit: we each make up our own mind, and then plunges ahead to advocate for a singular version of “right” when that argument is truly non-sense in light of this basic way the universe is built:

Experience is Universal; Description is individual.

Because the act of experiencing and forming meaning is universal, everyone's experience has merit, has worth, and unlike the propaganda of fundamentalist religions, a diverse society is not any more immoral than the one of our segregated past or advancing present.  Morality is a separate issue from diversity and the universality of experience--there is no "wrong" experience.

In some ways, accepting this universal diversity is the primal moral issue every sentient being must face before all others.  It influences everything that comes after it, including all communication.  For our shared experience is our critical ingredient to add to what nature has wrought—how we think about and treat each other. 

Because Experience is Universal, there are only two Forms of Communication: 1) "I need to say this," and 2) "I want you to hear this."  Every type and medium of communication are somehow composed of one, the other or some combination of these two forms.

When we need to communicate, in any form, at any time, to anyone, we subconsciously or consciously as ourselves "What do I need to say?" and "What do I want them to take away?"  Whether a talk with your spouse, a presentation at work, a call with your Mom, a eulogy for a lost loved one, a song or book or painting shared with others, a first date, holding hands under the stars, making love, dancing alone or in front of the world.  Everything we do is made up of a need to say and a need to be heard.

From the time we hit sticks, threw rocks and danced for each other in fur skins, our fully communicating beings expect both to say their piece and to be heard.  It is in our genes and throughout our logic and language systems.  Many modern people, especially men, forget to give as well as they expect to get with these two forms, and therein lies the root of a lot of the conflict in our world.

How you think about your own thoughts and thought processes matters most of all for your ability to evolve and change.  We are learning now that what kind of communication models we share with each other, how those models represent respect and cooperation instead of derision and competition is critical. 

What do “they” have to say? What do “they” want us to hear?  What must I say?  How can I get you to hear this?

In an increasingly crowded world, what we tell ourselves and teach our children about experience, descriptions and how to communicate with each other across that infinite diversity is likewise increasingly critical.  

Perhaps in teaching our children, we can ourselves learn to accept everyone and work together, instead of continuing to judge and fight to win at any cost.

Reprogramming Your Bio Sense Suit & Powering Up

Welcome to Earth!  You have been equipped with a state-of-the art Homo Sapien Explorer unit including standard and extended Mind-to-Matter capabilities.  You have been here before.  You will be here again.

Enjoy Yourself!

Your Bio Sense Suit is designed to self-operate, but once you wake up inside of it, you should know that it also includes a powerful Pilot Control Interface (PCI) in the form of Self-Awareness and Deliberate Creation.  Your PCI includes portions of your Body, Mind and Spirit, and yet also provides contact and higher communication into and from the Energy Field.  This can be an effective aid in navigation to purpose, powering up and fulfilling your mission on Earth. 

As we said in your waking up briefing:

"Realizing in an emotional way, that is feeling that you are more than just the chemicals and electromagnetic patterns stored in your body, is like waking up to a Body that is your vehicle here, a Mind that is your control interface for the vehicle as well as the environment, and an Energy core that extends beyond this world, beyond this lifetime, yet is immediately present and at your disposal."

Your Bio Sense Suit's default programming will have created an amalgamation of both good and bad programs that have been running your suit until you gained awareness of your status as Pilot and Explorer.  You will want to reprogram to keep what you agree with and discard what was mistakenly collected or taught to you.  Failure to reprogram will clutter your mind and eventually limit your Suit's power availability and higher functions and communications.

As your "vehicle" on Earth, your Suit comes equipped with the standard human senses plus another set of higher-level Energy Field operators jointly available through collaboration with The Collective, a kind of co-op of sentient beings of which each of us is a member.  Some of the Collective are in-body with us, and some are pure energy friends, teachers and guides.

All of you is not in the Bio Sense Suit.  A portion of you, held exclusively in "energy" in the Energy Field, remains a separate but connected part of you.  This part of you, your Original Self is critical to Powering Up your Bio Sense Suit, and it literally surrounds and defines you through its flowing energy. 

The more you connect and resonate with your Original Self, the more powerful you will be because your Original Self remains with the Collective and has access to the greater wisdom and power of all to help satisfy your needs and desires while on Earth in your Suit.  When you are done with this suit, you may rejoin the Collective or travel in another Suit--NOTE Waking up in your Bio Sense Suit must occur on each trip in order to receive this briefing.

Your new awareness of the Suit's latent powers will not be as efficient as the omniscience you shared prior to the start of this mission, but we think you will find the expanded sensor packet useful including vibrational energy and thought sensors, intent detectors, expectation deflectors, perception enhancers and thought creation templates available for literally anything that's ever been made  or done anywhere or any time. 

Yet we regret to inform you that apathy, hypocrisy and fatalism are known bugs in the self-awareness activation sequence of your Bio Sense Suit.  Every traveler must grope through unawareness after birth, hopefully achieving Self-Awareness and contact with the PCI.

Most travelers feel disoriented and unsure after waking up and may reject or deny their power initially.  If practiced over time, this denial can lead to the aforementioned bugs, and should be avoided or prevented when possible through loving intervention and redirection to this Guide and/or their personal Program.

Practicing some "Program" of Self development and growth every day maintains the health of your Bio Sense Suit and maintains or increases its high bandwidth real-time communications with the Collective. Even though you are now aware that you are living in a Bio Sense Suit networked with The Collective through your Original Self and under your partial and increasing control, the Collective still also optimizes your Suit moment by moment with love and support. 

We are here to aid you on your way.   Anything you need, just ask!  We're here to help.

COMING NEXT: Suit Communications 101

The Elightened Being as Magnetic Monopole

What if Jesus and Buddha were examples of magnetic monopoles at the entity level?

What if the properties usually associated with a theoretical particle can in actuality become the properties of a properly aligned mind?  What if the principles and mathematics of electromagnetism can also model the power and charge of thought?

What if, indeed.

Words Matter No 1: "Energy" and "Spirit"

The words we use matter.  They matter to us, and they matter to whoever hears or reads what we have to say.  The choice of words can make or break a conversation, a relationship or even the fate of an idea.  In the land of knowledge, words rule.

So I use the words "energy" and "spirit" nearly interchangeable on this blog and in my upcoming book because I think they are physically interchangeable in my own cosmology--my set of beliefs that define the cosmos for me.  Everyone has some form of cosmology, call it your "model" for the Universe.  For many, this model is a fancy way to say what you think about God.

And now that we've brought "God" into this equation, the majority of people have already checked out because they don't believe in god and this must be some kind of God-thing that they wouldn't like.  While for others, the use of "God" means THEIR God, and we better hope we don't offend or insult, lest we incur their wrath.  Our god is wrong, and their God is right.  You know the type.

But wait a minute, I was talking about "cosmology," remember?  Why does the association to God make anything such a touchy subject? 

I've wasted countless hours saying, "I must use "energy."  It is the more accurate!:  I change everything to energy and take out any mention of "spirit," afraid to offend the scientist, the agnostic, the prove-it-to-me-and-i'll-believe crowd that I so want to reach. 

Then I see a touching movie, or watch a stranger help another who has fallen down, and I say, "I must use 'spirit' because it is the most accurate."  I change everything back to "spirit."  Finally, I got so tired of the debate and the changes, that I just gave up.  So throughout this blog and book, I am leaving both words used in different places where each seemed the best or most accurate description of that particular energy or spirit.

After all, the "energy" I am talking about, the energy I write about, the energy of "God" and the major religions, is a specialized, personalized energy that manifests individually, uniquely in each of us.  Regardless of what you call it or what I call it, its existence speaks volumes all on its own. Whether you think God caused it or it is a natural side-effect of our universe, we need not share the same descriptions to still share the same experience.

Your energy is not my energy, even though we are made of the same primal element and connected through the same unifying Energy Field.  When you say "energy" that point gets lost because it all sounds the same, but when you say "spirit," it is perfectly clear:  your spirit is not my spirit.  Of course not.

This is my spirit, and that is yours.  It is obvious when said that way, and yet every spirit is still only energy.  Each camp misses part of the whole by focusing on their description exclusively.

So I use the word "spirit" to help my friends of faith see the natural balance of their faith among all faiths, including those of no faith.  I use the word "energy" to help my agnostic, atheistic or scientific friends see the intelligent and responsive organizing principles within energy that motivate life.  And I use both in the hopes that each might see something of themselves within the other.

This is the power of "energy."  This is the power of "spirit."

For some, the connotations of "spirit" are too much, and yet I think there is also value in using "spirit" because it is the most commonly used word for the energetic structural form that I am trying to model in the Energy Field through Flow and Grow. 

Your "energy" becomes your "spirit" whenever you decide it does, and for most this happens upon a certain expansion of self-awareness occasioned by an acute observation of their energetic emotional experience, a pure moment of Flowing or Growing that somehow reveals more about the underpinnings of us all, a peek behind the Wizard's curtain, a glimpse of the hollowdeck's matrix.

Recognizing and engaging your energetic aspects is taking the energy that is you and directing it towards something consciously felt or desired.  We all do this constantly.  We don't need to think about it, and yet there is a fundamental difference between default creation and deliberate focused creation.

They are both "energy," and they are both "spirit."  But when you know you are doing it, you are doing it on purpose.  When you focus it, you are doing it with purpose, and perhaps in that purpose there is something more, something with soul. 

And we can always use more soul.

One Egg, Two Fields and Three Forms

In the Egg Model of the Universe, there are two interacting Fields: Energy and Matter that create three Forms over time: 1) the interactive force, 2) the interface where the two planes meet, and the space of interacting Energy-Matter over time that is carved out by the process of life.

There are two Fields, but there is a definite relationship between them:  Energy created Matter.

Once there was only Energy.  It was everything, and for reasons we can only guess at now, Matter was created wholly within it and our universe (or many universes) were born.  Now there are still "places" of only-Energy, but there are also places of a mixture of Energy and Matter like our world.

Or put another way, Matter is original Energy put through a process to alter it's state into that of Matter, so our world is all Energy; Energy + Mutated Energy (Matter).  The ironic thing is that we have known this for a long time.  Einstein proved it in 1905 with the mass-energy equivalence formula.

Twisted and folded, the Energy Field extends throughout the Matter Field and all space-time at the quantum level as the originating creative spark and a binding and informing nexus for both the manifestation of matter itself (Grow), but then also in the Platonic "Forms" or "Universals" sense of structure and meaning (Flow).

There are three Forms, and the relationship among them is created by time and the motion of the universe: past, present and future. 

By definition the space carved out in the Matter Field over time is the past, the interface is the present and the interactive force (Flow or Grow) is the Future.

Within the Matter Field-our world, the experience of Energy is always filtered through the Energy-Matter entity that is doing the experiencing.  The filtering is experienced through emotions and processed through our Mind, which is one of the three Forms. 

Awareness of this fact, or ignorance of this fact create strikingly different worldviews and actions in humans.

In constant, unending motion, spinning in our bodies, spinning on our planet, in our solar system, in our galaxy, our universe.  Once we see ourselves as Energy + Mutated Energy (Matter) beings and not just Matter beings, then we can understand that the relationship between time and mind is critical to optimizing the flow of our natural happy energy and power. 

The two Fields and Three Forms of the Egg Model attempt to capture everything in our world with a simple model of "Self" integrated with the "universe," instead of excluded it as is done in most science.

Since our very consciousness may be also made of that which is the twisting and folding intelligence of the universe, the energy that creates Matter at the quantum level (Grow) and the energy that animates life (Flow) are usefully modeled as one.

In use, this model allows a consideration of Energetic Flow and Grow issues as causative factors in any unwanted life experience, thus allowing the individual or therapist to address energetic, spiritual, and emotional issues with emphasis on the critical temporal dimension for that issue as well as in a culturally neutral, non-judgmental vocabulary of Energy and Matter.

Rub it 'Til it Shines

Shine bright star through the dark night, lead us in frequencies we cannot see, in rhythms we cannot rhyme.  Broken burning star, stretched and twisted kundalini taffy, twinkling net to light my fingers, glow under my skin, chase from center to center, flighting like a dragonfly, color to color, emotion to emotion, abstraction to realization.

Beam bright sun and lift me up, fortify me for the joy at hand, turn my inside out and make me laugh.  Love me like fusion, endless and more and more, the sum is more than all nodes.  Give me the patience to cultivate the eyes that see the true being in all beings, in all being.  Yet being just one node. 

Warm me morphic plan in the presence of my elders, know me in the timeslip of the non-local mind, feel my fungible experience return home, bring me power and confidence and content to filter these rays, pay forward the pass on and enjoy my vacation in the rainbow buddha bodysuit.

A Moment For Economics: Funding the Super-Freedom-Few

One of the most enlightened principles of democracy and free societies is the equality of each individual within the whole of the nation, town or community. 

In economics, the "free market" is supposed to represent the pinnacle of this same principle in action for the "natural" organization of resources in supply according to the demand for that resource.

Yet the free market is not free.  Neither is it equal.  Wealth and access to capital are such extreme advantages in the "free" market, that they tilt the power in such ways that eventually, the aggregation of that power in too few hands impacts the experience of freedom and equality for all.

In America now, the privileged few experience a kind of "super-freedom" of privilege and excess, extravagance and luxury, while the majority of us experience a sub-freedom that is mostly free and filled with enough consumerism and the occasional vacation to keep us bought into the whole system. 

We know every day is filled with common risks that could financially devastate us or our family, and in the back of our mind, we know that "the system" won't be there to help us, but  we don't know what to do and we don't like to think about it.

Yet a growing number of people have no freedom or sense of equality at all.  They are so poor that they have not one moment's relief from the anxieties of paying for life, let alone any resources for the toys, gadgets and services our culture tells us mean happiness.  They have no healthcare, no chance to own a home, little to no opportunity for advancement and increasingly a loss of hope.

And who can blame anyone for feeling left behind and betrayed when all around them, our luxury-driven economy turns a blind eye to the mortgage crisis and the 40% rise in the cost of the basics of living like food and transportation.  Meanwhile billions of tax dollars are spent in bailing out Bear Stearns and other failed speculators, subsidizing giant oil companies and debt-funding a reckless foreign policy.

Meanwhile, real American families of good people, dedicated and hard working patriots are being broken right now because of our collective failure, the failure of the free market, the failure of our government.  The "poor" are growing at alarming numbers in America, and the free market doesn't care, the wealthy don't care and the government has sadly failed.

For whatever reason, the free market is not working.  We need something different, something blended with the free market that guarantees the basics of life. 

Surely this is the first and primary "collective interest" we share together, and not our current access to the lottery that is the only opportunity for "a better life" for many middle and lower class Americans in our current highly-concentrated wealth-economy.

As this blog is about becoming a blended being of energy and matter, consciousness and experience, our economy and government needs to be blended to better represent the basic collective interests of its constituents, to equalize the needs of the common masses with the needs of the wealthy.

As we come together in mental and spiritual spaces of worship and creation, let us pause a moment to consider the economics of our times, to peel back the popular veneer of infallibility that surrounds the free market and to admit together we have a problem the free market has failed to solve.

Let us recognize together that we can do better, that a blended economy can still reward individual hard work and feed and shelter and care for everyone.   There is no shame in limiting the freedom of some markets in order to ensure the freedom of all people.

Poem From a Dinosaur

The Egg Model Basics: 2 x 3 = 6

In this simplified Two Plane Model of existence, consciousness is integrated with the universe to produce:

Two Elements represented as Fields or Planes:

• Energy
• Matter

Two Actions represented as constants innate in our universe:

• Flow
• Grow

Three Aspects to our shared reality in the Matter Plane:

• Past
• Present
• Future

Three Conditions represented as constants in the human experience:

• Body
• Mind
• Spirit/Energy/Self

Six Focus Points for personal and collaborative energetic development:

• Love (self/energy/spirit)
• Art
• Culture
• Body
• Mind
• Spirit