Sat - December 6, 2003
Chris Finally Starts His Blog
Once upon a time I was searching for a way to put my thoughts into order. Then I realized that the only order that really had any meaning for me was experience.
How could I try to organize all of this that flows through me. What am I even trying to say? Is anyone even listening? Does that matter? Every day I seem a part of this world and yet totally removed from it, watching, observing in a way I wonder whether others ever do. I think most don't, but I don't mind.
Neil Simon called it the writer's nature: to observe even as we experience. "Damn, this fight is great dialogue," is not, after all, a very normal thing to think as your partner is yelling at you. But there are some things you shouldn't change about yourself and being a writer is one of them.
I tend to overthink things, and it sometimes makes me freeze up. Well, I don't really freeze up, I shunt instead, and that process of shunting took years to learn, to go somewhere else when I hit the wall with this space, from my science to my music to my science fiction to my art to my friends and family to my movement and back around again. It's not about one thing. It's about all of them.
What I have to say is important, and I've been afraid to say it. But now I'll try to be less afraid.
Thank you iBlog. You have begun something fun.
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